I remember sitting in the field with mum and dad as they advise me on which subjects to pick. The idea of all three sciences has crossed my mind once or twice… alright you got me Diary, more than once or twice more like a hundred times over. But you see you don’t understand, it’s not normal to do all three, I mean I am a lady now. Mum keeps telling me that I need to start acting more lady-like and women aren’t scientists they are historians and linguists.
They make it sound like we should leave science for the boys. I look at mums face as she and dad discuss on what would be the best choice for me. She’s worried. She’s probably thinking that I will want to quit eventually. “You know Tess, three sciences can be really hard, and what if you can’t handle that kind of work load? You know, you can’t go back?” dad says to me. Do they think I’m incapable because I am a girl? I’ve heard them talk about their high school days, about how most of the people who did all three were boys, and the girls ran away from physics and did biology because it was more reading than math. But I am not afraid of a little math. In any case I like math. Its simple to me, it’s straight forward and all I need to do is understand the concept then I can do anything. Is that strange?
These are the thoughts that cross my mind as I look at the paper to fill in what I want to do. My physics teacher, a woman is such an inspiration always telling us “Girls, do what you’re passionate about” and I hold these words close to my heart. But what if it’s true; what everyone is thinking but not saying? That girls aren’t just not cut out for this kind of work and we are the weaker species. We will never be as good as the boys or that we just don’t understand these things, because you know it’s in our DNA. What if I pick all three then I wish I hadn’t? What happens then, Diary?
So I take myself to the physics lab going to talk to my teacher about this matter. I find her testing out a few experiments that I think are for the form fours, it looked pretty cool. While talking to her about the matter she looks at me, smiling and says after I play out for her my inner monologue of the back and forth between being a strong woman of science and woman over taken by fear, too scared to follow her dreams and she says to me. “You know what Tess I can’t answer this question for you. The only way you will ever know what you are good at and what you aren’t, is if you try. So my question to you is, do you love what you’re doing in all the three? Does it make you happy? Do you love reading and gaining knowledge about it? And if your answer is yes, never let fear be the reason you didn’t try. People don’t regret the things they tried and failed at but they regret the things they wanted to do and let fear stop them”
So am I scared? Heck yes! But do I regret MY decision to do all three? Heck no! I am happy with my decision. At the end of the day I love them all. I’m willing to go against the odds and be different, for the love of science and the drive to do what I love.
Author: Ivy Sheri | Date Created2017-06-19 15:14:48 | Comments: 0