I would change how I look; my face, my teeth, my eyes, my hair, where I was born, who my siblings are and where I went to school. The only two things I wouldn’t change are my feet and smile - they made me famous.
Hold on a second, what was the question again? Yes! I, just like most of you, went for things I totally have no control over. To be honest there are very few things that we can control but they are capable of changing those we don’t have control over. As paradoxical as it seems, it’s been proven. I have to warn you, to understand it you need to have your open mind cap on.
First. Have you ever wanted something but did not achieve it? What stopped you? In the spirit of being keen to the question, I will point out the fact that this question talks about WANTING as opposed to having done it at all. This could actually mean that all the effort you made was in just wanting but not doing anything about it. You could argue that the circumstances did not allow you to do it. I would say that your desire was uninformed. My example; I wanted to drive by the time I was 16. Before you laugh at me, if you already haven’t done so, in the United States of America one can drive at 16. What I did not consider, or just chose to ignore, was the fact that Kenya is not among those states.
I conveniently chose to ignore the fact that my father would not allow me anywhere near his car, if he had one, before I had a driver’s license which also meant having an Identification card. What was wrong with me, my dreams were valid but misplaced. On the brighter side, I am almost the designated driver especially when he needs something done but wants someone else to do it. I am therefore right to say that I should have known I had control over the way things were to go if I was well informed or just not ignorant.
Second. Have you ever tried something but failed? Why did you fail? I tried being top of my class in upper primary but failed. Before you judge me as being lazy and wasting my parent’s money, hear me out. I was a well behaved, always well performing student but I was not the best. If you have been or are in the 8-4-4 system you are sure to understand what a big deal being the best means. Every teacher will take your answer for gospel truth; every parent will use you as an example and a good one for that matter. But most importantly, you will get a gift of your choice although limited to a certain value pegged on the range you left your biggest rival, second position.
How do I know I was capable? I was always top of my class in lower primary and in upper primary I was always between the ranges of tenth to fifteenth position. My father once promised me a camera if I got to the fifth position at the end of the second term in class five. I did everything and the long and short of it, I got the camera. I cherished that little black thing and it was analogue so I was limited to between 24 to 36 pictures per film depending on the film. I was therefore capable of being the best if I really wanted it as bad as I wanted the camera.
Back to the original question, what would I change if I had the ability? My attitude is it. My attitude towards my parents when they “denied” me the chance to drive before I came of age. They were protecting me from myself. My ignorance blinded me from the dangers that come with driving early: the law and careless driving which the younger me would have termed as adventurous driving. My attitude towards my education, the hard work was not just for immediate gratification but for a greater good and a brighter future.
The greatest step in one’s growth is having the right attitude towards oneself, authority and everyone else around you. Have the right attitude and you will be surprised by how much more you can achieve and move closer to your destiny, greatness!
Author: Philemon Mutuma | Date Created2017-05-18 03:49:46 | Comments: 0